anger

Saturday, September 30, 2006
I am absolutely livid right now. I mean, seriously, I just want to break something or hurt someone. I've cried and freaked out my kids. And there is just nothing I can do but sit and breathe and try to calm down. I hate being angry. It makes me feel like a monster. I can't even put into words how I feel right now. I just want to take my children and go away forever, go someplace where I'll never have to be like this again. My kids should never have to see me this angry. Never. Its not their fault. It makes me even angrier that they have been exposed to such an ugly side of me. Its not fair to them. I hate it.